Sunday, December 26, 2010

The Reason for This Blog

I've always been one to be flaky about New Year's Resolutions.  Let's face it.  I'm a procrastinator...I'm ADD...and worst of all...most of those 'resolutions' have been tied into the exterior - i.e. losing weight, working out.  While there are certainly arguments that both of these items can also be good for the soul - for me - it has the complete opposite affect.

For decades, I have felt ashamed of many things in my life and at the top of that list includes my weight and my physical appearance.  I've never felt pretty enough or thin enough and I didn't even have to have therapy to understand the reasons behind these feelings.

In 2009 and 2010, I learned a lot about myself.  Unideal circumstances forced me to come to terms with a lot of unpleasantness however, out of these struggles came some good results.

So, for 2011, I'm all about creating some goals for myself - ones which are not tied into weight, appearance, and even ones not at all associated to the expectations of others.

In a few days, I'll post my list.  I don't know if it will have 5 things or 50 things on it.  I've got a lot of soul-searching to do.  Stay tuned.